I’ve been thinking recently about what my ‘thing’ is. You know how some people have something that brings them so much joy and gives them a purpose in life, whether it be running, sports, photography, sky-diving, etc? Well, that’s their thing and they own it fantastically and uniquely, in a way that only they can.
I have friends who are brilliant bakers, hardcore runners, fitness fanatics, or just plain talented and creative when it comes to all things crafts. I look at them, I feel proud and I think ‘go for it, you are so owning your thing!’ (*snaps fingers*).
But part of me also thinks, ‘what’s my thing? What am I really good at?’ I’m 31 this month – yikes! – I really should have a thing by now. For me, I see a thing as a passion that brings you joy, comfort, peace… whatever positive energy you want it to bring. But your thing is also how you express yourself. It’s your story that you can share with others. You can talk passionately about your thing for hours and if anyone ever needs advice on something related, people can say ‘go and talk to her about that, that’s totally her thing.’ THAT, for me, is what your thing is all about!
I guess writing has always been the closest I’ve got to a thing. I’ve always loved writing. My beloved Granddad taught me to read and write before I even started school, and I spent much of my younger childhood penning little stories on pieces of A4 paper before sticking them together with cellotape to create my own low-budget books.
Nowadays though, I feel like I doubt myself too much when it comes to my writing to really be able to own it and make it my thing. I question myself constantly and, as a result, my little blog gets questioned. There are so many fantastic writers out there, why should my personal stories be worth sharing with the world? Am I putting myself ‘out there’ too much with some of my posts about life and emotions? Am I not putting myself out there enough?
Although I doubt myself daily, I push myself to continue on writing about life, experiences, emotions and that constant quest for positivity because maybe, just maybe, if I stick with it, it could really become my thing. Despite the anxiety I often feel about putting myself out there on my blog, I also feel joy when I’m proud of a post I’ve created. I’d love to feel like my writing inspires others, but I equally realise I have a lot of effort to put into my writing, and my blog, in order to do so, so I’ve got a long way to go before I feel like I can really call writing my thing.
So, what’s your thing? Do you feel like you have one, or are you still searching for one? Do you feel like you can only have one thing in life, or can you juggle a few?
I’d love to hear from you!